I just finished reading your blog, for the second time. I have much to say, and much the same fears and similar situation. Not quite as drastic, but I see the possibilities all the time. But for now I have to digest your pain and think about you for a little while. Please know you are not alone. People need to tell these stories and people need to ask for help and hopefully people will respond. I wish you and your family strength, you are all very special. I will be in touch.